Sometimes it feels like time is spiraling out of control. I no longer feel like a youngster in the big bad college world. That alone is a scary thought, especially since I look back at my freshman year of college and see just how much I've changed since then.
Now don't get me wrong..it’s not that I don’t want to grow-up, or that I’m scared or even dreading the next stage. It’s just that I love my life so much right now and where I'm at that I’m not ready for it to end. I love this town, I love these people, I love my classes (okay LOVE is an overstatement but I do enjoy what I am doing), I love the new church I have discovered (more than words...). I LOVE THIS LIFE and I’m just sad to see it end because I feel at this point that it’s gotten really, really good.
And so here I am here, back to this point again talking about the distant future, which after all is a not so distant one. I'm feeling a bout of homesickness that I haven't honestly felt in a very long time. I think it's because I know. My mind and soul know that the moving on process is coming....and it's coming sooner than expected.
I feel a little wave of deja vu as I sit here contemplating my newfound life...a little flash backwards to high school. Yes, I didn't have quite the same expierence as many others did. I loved my friends, like seriously loved them to death. They were the greatest gift, and I thank God everyday for sending them my way. How was I supposed to move on from the life that I had so graciously settled into...that I had gotten comfortable in and grown up in. Moving on is a funny thing, we always think that it will be the most difficult thing we have ever had to face. In some cases letting go to make way for the new is challenging and heartbreaking. In other ways, it's like a breath of fresh air.
So here's to......
the people that have impacted me more than they ever imagined.....
the places that have forced me to grown into the woman I am today....
the experiences that I will remember for the rest of my life....
THANK YOU.
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